Three weeks ago I got a letter. It turned my world upside down. I had been feeling pretty good. Doing well. A letter. Everything suddenly changed.
The letter was almost insignificant. A small piece of paper that instructed me to see my doctor for an innocent checkup. Nothing special. I still got the chills when I read it. I got angry. I was really upset because to me the letter clearly indicated that someone, somewhere, thought I was really sick. The sender thought that there was something wrong with me.
I fumed for a couple of days. I was driving my wife mad. A single letter - 8 lines - had managed to set me back big time. I hadn’t felt this bad for months. I was slipping. Fast.
I’ve already gone to the doctor and I’ve even gotten the results. I am fine. Of course. But I am not. I lost my footing. I fell. Not far (I’m still a long way from that lowest point on the valley floor) but it still hurts. I’ve started moving up again but I feel that I lost some momentum.
But that’s how it goes. You climb, you fall, you pick yourself up and you keep moving. Control the mind, control the climb.


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March 4, 2007 at 12:47 pm
Cindy
Hey Jonah - I hope you’re recovering well from the reverberations. And I hope that blogging helped.
March 5, 2007 at 9:38 pm
Josh
I’ve been there before. I’ve found that these types of things don’t bother me too much unless I’m already “slipping,” but that’s just me. It’s easy to see how this could cause a lot of anxiety thought. I’m glad everything turned out fine though. Hopefully the anxiety will abate soon.